Transitions

I did it! I moved into a new place literally and figuratively.

It was a little over three years ago when my friend Darrell found me an amazing deal. It was a house on an acre of land here in Hawaiian Paradise Park. A sweet cheap rent and work trade setup. The house was built and designed by artists back in the 80’s with all the cool little touches you might expect.

An old and funky place, it needed a lot of work. The previous renters had really let it go and left a bunch of junk behind. As I cleaned the place energetically and physically, I felt its power to increase whatever emotional energy that was brought to it. Maybe this was because of the actual location, the intentional design and layout of the structure, or the fact that it is surrounded by rainbow eucalyptus trees.

Whatever it was this place healed many people. We held weekly support/therapeutic type circles there for over 2 years. These circles drew empaths, healers, energy workers, clairvoyants, starseeds, indigos, and generally just overall amazing people.

I started my own coaching/energy work business there and experienced my own intensified depression and pain from what would come up as the result of my thoughts in the house. I had to clear old energy patterns, make peace with what would not leave in the house, and connect to a part of me that I thought was an external energetic phenomenon.

Before I moved to this house I was stuck and unable to see my way out. I had sold almost everything I owned and moved to Hawaii. I stayed with family while finishing my degree and I told myself it was work trade but I was living with family in a place where I felt a bit like an alien. I isolated, meditated, dedicated many hours a day practicing tai chi and focused on learning everything I could about psychology. I had already studied ascension mechanics, metaphysics, tarot, et… and yet I still wasn’t fixed. I had to find the answer.

I only found more questions because I was only learning. I was not truly applying the principles consistently. And at the same time, it was all perfect including the sever illness of leaky gut I developed then. I cut out so many addictions but was finding myself still self-medicating by eating a large bowel of ice-cream every night and watching Netflix.

As the illness progressed my body began wasting away from nutrient deficiency as the result of intestinal damage from poor food choices and the inflammation from prolonged stress/fear. I came to this planet to do something and I was not doing it or better yet I simply couldn’t enjoy my developmental phase for when I would do it later. I negatively judged and was time obsessed.

When the house among the trees opportunity was presented to me, I was genuinely excited. I was on the path back to health because I had found a group of men who supported me in having a voice and helping me heal the deep wound, I carried. A childhood and past life wound that ran deep from men who abuse their power.

I was of course doing many things and seeing many healers but this masculine environment of sitting in a circle and doing training adventures helped me face many triggers and self-worth issues. It also taught me to break down many of the remaining destructive patterns that my metaphysics/tarot teacher threw back at me on a continual basis for 5 years while in Arizona.

Like me the house needed to be cleaned and the jungle hacked back away from it. An amazing thing happened during the process. I discovered things I needed in the house, dishes, tools, pots and pans, tables, chairs, things that I remember thinking how I am I ever going to afford to buy all those things again. It was one of many blocks that kept me stuck in my head worried and afraid.

Outside I rescued a banyan tree who spoke to me in an ancient tongue many have forgotten to listen to, I found close to a hundred pineapple plants, banana plants, mangos and even a hot tube.

I am grateful for my time among the eucalyptus trees, the banyan trees, and the pineapples. It is time to move on and grew beyond the safety of this magical hiding place.

I am loving my new spot full of sunshine and cool ocean breezes. Can’t wait to see what happens next!

May you remember and use what is uncovered,

Jason

Creating from the Center

A long while back I was doing some research into King Solomon and the amazing stories of his life and deeds. I have always been inspired by tales of magic and mystery for I never stopped believing these things were real. I could never explain this I just knew it with every cell of my being.

Many will probably know more about him than myself, but I did want to share my discovery from the stories I gleaned. I really feel a special energy when I connect to this information and much of the Kabbalah in general. King Solomon’s accomplishments and famous wisdom are of course legendary. One of the biggest things I was drawn to was information on the seal of Solomon.

In many versions of the story he had a ring with a six-pointed star which represented many things. This star was comprised of two triangles one for the masculine energies and one for the feminine. They were both in perfect balance and harmony with one another.

The six points represented, among probably many things, the six directions. North, South, East, West, Earth and the Sky. The 7 point was the center of these external directions (Galactic understanding of orientating a specific location in space.). This 7th point, could be described as the heart or the whole body/energy of the person creating everything around them.

This is the place Solomon the wise knew he had to create from. The center must be in balance, the center must be resonate internally with the energy one is trying to create, and the center must be protected from that which might try to infiltrate that is not in resonance with what is desired. All leading to the amazing stories of being able to manifest magnificent abundance and even control demons.

I do not generally speak of such creations or do I often refer to energies as such but this was how it was described or translated in the stories. Dealing with thoughts and emotional energy clears much of this. It is a lot of mind stuff as the Buddhists would say. Something I took to mean as not being real and really upset me, but I see now more of what was meant by that statement. Humans give it the power much like the stories of the gods of old that disappeared once people quite believing in them.

Perhaps something is lost in translation, my own understanding or exaggeration but I do know that another form these energies are the thoughts that people entertain and feed. I will not try and define the various levels, names, and understandings of what this is but I will say that being aware of our thoughts is the most powerful indicator of what is driving us when we lose our center.

The center is simple Love.

Are my thoughts separating me from Love?

Does a thought separate me from parts of myself? Does a thought or belief cause conflict and separation from others? Do I feel I am better than or less than another? Do I want to hurt myself?

Our experiences and the environments we find ourselves in can intensify these distortions and trauma can make them unbearable. Trauma rips the veil away long enough to allow massive creative forces and clairvoyance to come online within a person. Trauma can also create a disconnect with the body and so breathing and other tools are needed daily. Without tools and context these increased potentials in a human being can tear them apart.  I know I lived it. I struggled my whole life to gain as many tools and contexts for how to survive it. I was relentless and have found a way to navigate it and share these things with others.

I am of course still on the journey but it is getting easier. Each person I work with adds to my understanding and I must do the same work they bring to me. For my resonance is drawing them. And so, the external is the internal and the internal the external and I must go once more to the center. The only part I can truly know and create from.

May you find balance and harmony,

Jason

#Createfromcenter #Selfmastery #SuperpowerCoaching

Unwanted Visitor

I sit and contemplate my tortured fate…..wait….

Is it really?

No not at all.

Then why do I feel like this yet again?

It is there again that familiar anger and frustration. The familiar feeling that I am about to explode but can’t. I feel stuck in my body and forced to be where I am. I am forced to face the path I have placed myself on unable to let go and accept what is. This brings sadness and rage. The desire is to unleash and break something. The impulse to break out and break free….just plain break something but I know it not wise this time around.

Perhaps this current inspiration to write this here is the result of all that has come into my awareness at a deeper level lately. There have been epiphanies and deeper realizations of how I choose and create my reality. How what I focus on comes into my life and how all that I project out in the form of thoughts and judgments with the fuel of emotion is now what is seen before me.

In all honesty it is actually quite good. And yet here I am again, though I am feeling blessed with all the love of my family, wonderful supportive friends, and the love of a woman who takes me right to my heart in a way that I haven’t fully gone to in a long while the pain remains.

So why this depression, this feeling of frustration and pain….the unwanted visitor that comes to me and spins me out so that everything falls apart. All that I have worked to build and accomplish becomes stagnate with opportunities to proceed from my efforts potentially missed. Like paddling out to a wave just about to catch it and something pulls me down.

Lately I have gained some control over this as it is more of a, I am still on the surface of the ocean type thing, but the wave passes and I see all those that have caught it…Honestly, I sometimes wonder which is worse but I do delight in their play and enjoyment. It warms my dark mind and activates me into my heart to really see people doing what they love and living free.

I know I will get there too. I just need to break the mental groove in my head and the wake of its undertow which holds me in fear.  The subconscious groove or gutter of past thoughts that there dwells all I have created. That which may have served me long ago but now only houses the thought forms and limitations that visit me now.

Is it all mind stuff and the darkness is my own making. Will my world and the one around me change if I can catch my visitors and cast them out? Will I catch up with those who have done this and freed themselves from restriction and pain?

I will do it tonight and the next day and again and again until there is a new groove which will not be a gutter.

May you know inner harmony and external peace,

Jason